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I don't know who I am anymore. They're outsourcing more and more of my site everyday. I have no career path and I don't think anyone cares that this slow drain of my site bothers me. This site is who I am. Its what I've worked on for the past 4 years and its slowly being given away to vendors who do a shitty job. They're taking away the only thing I've managed to create in my whole life.

I'm unable to create children. I failed as a writer. Can't cook. Can't draw. This was the one thing that I'd made and its going away. I am so lost.