Chat with Missy

Missy!: love you

me: really?

Missy!: tons
you are one of my favorite people

me: missy what if i have dymensia already
i think in general i'm 2 minutes away from a real nervous breakdown

Missy!: then I will have fun playing games on you
don't take this the wrong way, but that is how it should be
you are in a very strange place
not comfortable
scary
and unknown
you should be feeling the way you are

me: i'm gonna use the EAP

Missy!: my friend Kate, who just went through a divorce said this "I have to feel this in order to get past it"
please do
i love the eap

Sent at 10:53 AM on Friday

Missy!: G is coming to Daisy
to cheer us on

me: that's awesome!

Missy!: [nose smile]

Sent at 10:57 AM on Friday

me: M the day is beautiful and I have friends and family that love me and I have a lot of fun things that are planned in the near future and a good job then why am I so unhappy?
why does the idea that i could have a heart attack at any minute not bother me
why does part of me wish i would

Missy!: because, like me, we are sensative to chemicals and our environment, I have the same feelings, great life but why am I unhappy, I often feel guilty for feeling unhappy
the best of days can be thrown with chemicals alone
then add stressful situations to the mix and we crumble
not that we aren't strong
maybe we are too strong

me: james hates me

Missy!: why do you say that?

me: no reason
maybe just bec i think he should