Hi.
I read through the stuff I'd written many years ago and I remember all those feelings and I'm impressed I wrote them all down so eloquently. It's also amazing that I made it out of that time period alive.
But I did. Somehow. With Missy's help and lots and lots of wasted time filled with distractions.
This is me now with the love of my life.
But he's growing up quickly and I will soon be alone again. I've already been experiencing it and it's like a drowning. And I don't have the support around me that I did before.
I'm trying to prepare and find things that I want to do with my life when I'm living for myself again. I'm worried these things I'm cultivating will not be the inner tube I need to stay afloat, but might be more of a bath toy that I'll be taking under the waters when I can't kick anymore.
Hmmmm
15 years ago